fearing recovery
deleteing contacts

I delete her contacts regularly.
so I dont see her name or wonder if she calls or emails. She tells me there are strange coincidences when I do.
I leave it to her to make the next move.
I made mine already moved her into my heart on the comfy chair red with the little white doiley so she can spill her coffee or tea or coke or whatever in the hell she is drinking
its next to the tv she has the remote when she is in
Lately she is gone - leaving her smell to wake me up at night gentlely but completely - enough to do taxes or wash baseboards but not to just lie in bed resting.